growing pains

There are a lot of ways in which I have things put together. And people know that - they can see when I've got the moves down and when I know what I'm doing. Honestly, too, if Phonathon ever taught me anything, it's that when you're in a position of authority... bs like crazy. You might not have the answer, but find something that'll do in the short term and then find it. And I'm pretty decent at that.

But, all that said, there are of course growing pains. Life is hard, and things are lonely in Merrill, WI. When I have a long list of things 'to-do,' I'm content, because I can run around and get those little things done. But when I've got a huge ministry to mold and formulate and... well then I feel a little overwhelmed. I always have a ton to do - the more I know what I'm doing, the more I feel like I'm efficient.

But there's part of my problem. I hope you caught it, even as I typed the previous paragraph. The problem starts when I begin to think that it's my ministry to mold and form and direct. Thank God it's not! If it were... I would be... dead? Something like that. But it is his.

Which means that typing this brought me to a good realization.

I need to pray.